My first vision board

I made my first ever vision board Saturday at the gym!

Side note – I LOVE that my gym hosts stuff like this. These events really build the community, and I never would have tried it if it wasn’t offered!

The gym provided the boards, glue, fun scissors, tape, washi, etc., and asked us to bring in magazines. I was shocked to find 7 magazines* in my nightstand drawer, from 2016-2019. They were all health/fitness themed, so my board skewed that way.

It felt good to flip through the magazines and pick out things that spoke to me and place them on the board (and to see what everyone else created!). Now I just need to put it up in my office!

*I used to LOVE getting and reading magazines! When that industry died out and it went digital, I didn’t transfer over to reading digitally. It doesn’t hold my attention like print does. 

Reading Update (2024 #1-3)

[1] Winter Storms & [3] Winter Solstice by Elin Hilderbrand  
Fiction / Women, book 3&4 in Winter Street Series, audiobook

Synopsis: Books 3 & 4 in the Winter Street Inn series with the Quinn family cover more of the entire year, but still mainly focus on happenings around the holidays. There’s family drama, relationship drama, work drama, health drama, a missing soldier, jail time, drug addiction… and several other story lines. Book 4 ends the series.

Review: I really grew to love the Quinn family characters and want to know more about what happens to them all – book 4 wasn’t tied up with a neat bow (but didn’t end on a cliffhanger or anything). I loved that the 4th book featured characters I’ve read about in other Hilderbrand novels that had not been part of the story yet. It’s fun to read her books and see what happens to these characters over their lives. Overall, this series is enjoyable, easy to follow, and light-hearted enough (like all her books!).

Recommend? Yes

[2] Olivia Strauss is Running Out of Time by Angela Brown
Fiction / Women, free on Kindle First reads, Kindle

Synopsis: Olivia just turned 39 and is freaking out about her age. To make light of it, her best friend invites her on an outing to the Nettle Clinic, where a few tests can tell you your death date. Only they never exactly tell Olivia her results, so it just freaks her out even more.

Review: I did not like this book until the very end, and was honestly hoping Olivia would die. How horrible is that? None of the characters in this book are likeable, very few of Olivia’s decisions made sense to me, and it was driving me absolutely batsh*t crazy that they would not share what her results from the clinic were. Why did I even finish this?!

Recommend? Um, no

 

WHY AM I LIKE THIS 😐

I’m not doing a list of goals this year, but I did think of ONE thing I should really work on – not rushing around so much.

I have this bad habit of stacking activities/chores/errands/whatever because in my mind that’s more efficient and leaves me more free time later, but it NEVER works out that way. When I get to the end I am exhausted and cranky.

For example, today is my Friday off, my plan is to:

  • Do my long run (I won’t have time tomorrow morning and I want to chill Sunday morning with Steven)
  • Get a haircut
  • Stop at Trader Joe’s?
  • Get a massage
  • Get a car wash?
  • Do a video call with a friend in Australia

That is too much stuff! When I was making the massage appointment for today and saw I already had a hair appointment I almost didn’t make it. But no days next week made sense for the massage, and my body really needs it.

Sigh.

Now, how do I turn this into a SMART goal?

I don’t have any related photos so I present blissed out Starbuck. I should aim to be as calm as her.

Speaking of calm, my snister sent me this message Monday:

I love those three for me. My snister knows me so well. Now, to figure out how to calm down…

Random Thoughts Thursday 436

  • Stephany sent me (weeks ago!) a lovely holiday package with a CAT BUTT(!!!) puzzle, cat tea towel, microfiber hair drying towel, and 5 year one-line-a-day journal. Thank you so much for the thoughtful gifts, Stephany! I was thinking about buying a one-line-a-day-journal so it was the perfect gift. Stephany had talked about hers, and it sounds like such a cool exercise. I just started mine on January 1st.
  • I woke up January 1st with the cold Steven had at the end of the year. I had planned to start 2024 off with a run, but I went on an easy walk with Steven instead, then took Tuesday completely off (and took the day off from work and rested all day). I’m proud of myself for not forcing exercise when I don’t feel well. That was my MO in the past, but I actually listen to my body now!

When I took my glove off to take this photo it pulled on a friendship bracelet sent to me by a friend from the Netherlands and broke it. Normally, something like this would really upset me, but I was able to save the word she put on it (” ‘HAPPY’ ” because that is how people feel when they are around you” she said) and half the beads and wasn’t upset. Look at me, not getting upset about a small thing. Go Kim!

  • I was sad to miss Tuesday’s strength class and happy that I felt well enough to go yesterday. Two friends there asked where I was Monday – there wasn’t class on Monday, but there was a Polar Bear Plunge into Lake Michigan that I never planned on doing but thought about going to watch. It felt really nice that friends from the gym were all “where were you?!” (I told them I was sick and they joked that maybe the cold lake would make me feel better, ha! Doubtful.)
  • Not to keep going on and on about having a cold, but does anyone feel like their colds are different after having COVID-19? For example, pre COVID-19, my colds followed a pattern of sore throat, dry cough, productive cough, then phlegm for a week+. Now my colds go much faster and they’re mostly just my eye and nose leaking, and then a dry cough that sometimes becomes a productive cough.
  • My right shoulder has been a bit sore since the week of December 11th so I have been going light with weight. All that to say, guess what it being sore perfectly aligns with? Me starting to use this mug (with my right hand) that weighs 3 lbs 6 oz with water in it! Ha! Probably not any real correlation but I thought that was a funny coincidence.

Link to Random Thoughts Thursday 435

2023 Goals Check-in #12

I’ll be posting monthly check-ins on my 2023 Goals. This is (FINAL!!!!) check-in #12!

Take care of my health

What to say, what to say… how about I made it through December?!?! Woo hoo! December felt more stressful and less joyous than in years past. I hate to say this, because I’m a Christmas lover, but it felt so good to get past Christmas and back to some routine and quiet. That’s mostly a reflection on my mental health.

So, not a stellar month, but not horrible. I had a 2.1% weight gain and an overall 19.5% loss for the year. I hit that overall loss number around June and am proud to have stayed around it for half the year. Success!

I ran, walked, biked (still biking outside!), and took strength classes at WWM this month. I had one therapy session, one massage, and two INR appointments. I met with my vascular doctor and he said I’m doing great and don’t need to see him for a year! I prioritized getting enough sleep, but learned it didn’t matter if I got enough sleep if I woke up every hour.

Spend less
(mostly tracking my two vices – sending packages and getting Starbucks)

I mailed three Christmas gifts ($8.67, $6.09, and $9.12, $23.88 total) and one birthday gift ($7.98), for a total of $31.86 spent on shipping in December.

January: $248.76
February: $81
March: $72.54
April: $44.40
May: $37.37
June: $99.47
July: $15.09
August: $48.86
September: $32.35
October: $0
November: $77.72
December: $31.86
Total: $789.42
Last year: $1740

Overall I spent $789.42 on shipping this year – $950.58 less than last year. Success!

I went to Starbucks quite a few times in December! I bought gift cards there on 12/1 ($45, 3 cards) and 12/23 ($10, 1 card) and got drinks 5 times – on 12/9 in Kansas City by myself, on 12/18 after my doctor appointment with Steven, on 12/24 on the way to Iowa with Steven (we shared), on 12/26 on the way home from Iowa with Steven (we shared) and on 12/30 after a walk with Steven.

That was a lot for the month but writing about my visits here really held me accountable. I was ASHAMED when they sent me my 2022 yearly recap:

104 visits?! What the actual f-word, Kim?!

I was hoping they’d send a recap this year in the same style but they didn’t. But I know I only went 32 times since I tracked it here. And I almost always had a gift card or free drink – I only reloaded my card a couple times, and when I bought gift cards. So, success!

Continue to purge things I don’t use from the house

Hmm, I didn’t donate anything this month or throw much away. I did come back from Christmas and immediately want to get rid of things in the storage room, but didn’t.

This category was not a huge success. It needs to be a concentrated effort, not worked on little but little (which is still better than nothing!).

Visit a new state with Steven

We visited two new states in October – Maine and New Hampshire! Success!

Maine Day 1
Maine Day 2
Maine Day 3
Maine/New Hampshire Day 4
Maine Day 5

Hide a rock a day for the year

FINALLY DONE! SUCCESS!!!! If I was not already burned out on social media, this challenge did me in. But I completed it! I only fibbed one day (way early on, when Steven kindly offered to pick up my prescription and I gratefully said yes then remembered when he got home I was going to do my hide that day – so I did two spots the next day) and legit went out and hid a freaking rock and recorded it every other day. GAH. NEVER AGAIN.

Things I’m Excited About in January

This is going to be a short list because what I’m most excited about this month is how little we have going on (compared to December). I just want some quiet and time at home. We had that this weekend and it was amazing to just be and relax. I actually painted! Three days in a row! Craziness!

I’ll add words to these rocks later

Anyway, on to this short list:

  • Relaxing and recharging at home
  • Prioritizing sleep and healthier eating
  • Going to William and Leo’s birthday party
    • Running with Dad while I’m in town?
  • Quizzing Steven more from his Private Pilot 2024 Test Prep Book
  • Seeing how the ISU (Iowa State University) campus has changed
    • Maybe running on campus?

What’s on your list for January?

2023: Unexpected Happenings

2023 was full of unexpected (mostly wonderful but some not so much) happenings and I’ve got to document them! Don’t worry, I’ll just do list form. Ooo, but let’s do categories!

Wonderful

Wonderful but Stressful

We got vegan cinnamon rolls after I got my APS news 

Not Wonderful

Reading Update (2023 #71-73)

[71] The Nanny by Lana Ferguson
Fiction / Romance / Contemporary, saw in “Available Now” on Libby, Kindle

Synopsis: Cassie can’t afford to pay rent or for schooling since she quit doing OnlyFans. She sees an opening for a nanny position that seems too good to be true – it provides a place to live and great pay. She gets the job and loves the kid and is attracted to the (single) father and tries to keep it professional, but that goes awry (obviously) and then she figures out he was her #1 OnlyFan – the one she thought she had a connection with but never showed up when they planned to meet.

Review: Gosh, it feels odd to say this, but this book was mostly sex with not a lot of substance and I was not super there for it! Weird, because lately I’ve been annoyed with closed door books and this one was the complete opposite. I guess I’m having a Goldilocks moment. They kept mentioning Cassie’s tough past with parents who didn’t want her but never really got into it, and it was weird to use that to help her connect with the daughter (who is said her dad works so many hours as a chef) but not really explain more about it. I wanted more character development.

Recommend? No

[72] Winter Stroll by Elin Hilderbrand
Fiction Women, book 2 after Winter Street, audiobook

Synopsis: Book 2 in this series picks up just under a year after the first book ended – in the first weekend of December when Nantucket has its Winter Stroll – a festive open house of businesses and homes and a ball. The Quinn family is back with more drama.

Review: I enjoyed this as much as the first book. It was entertaining and short, and every storyline kept me engaged! I’d say more, but don’t want to give the storyline away.

Recommend? Yes

[73] Wreck the Halls by Tessa Bailey
Fiction / Romance / Romantic Comedy, wanted to read because I’ve liked past Tessa Bailey and this was new and seemingly holiday themed, Kindle

Synopsis: Beat and Melody’s mothers were a famous rock duo called Steel Birds back in the day but had nasty breakup and haven’t spoken in 30 years. Beat and Melody met once, when they were both 14, for a feature on the band, but were otherwise separated by living on different coasts and by their mothers hating one another. When a network approaches Beat about doing a reality show to reunite the band he initially says no, but comes around to the idea because he’s being blackmailed and needs the money the network will give him to pay his blackmailer. He gets Melody on board and and the feelings they had for one another at their brief meeting at age 14 (they’re now 30) resurfaces.

Review: What a disappointment. I thought I really liked Tessa Bailey because of It Happened One Summer and Hook, Line, and Sinker but this story was weak and ridiculous. And not Christmassy, which bothered a lot of people on Good Reads, ha ha. I didn’t mind the ridiculousness of a filming set following them around – that may have been the only interesting part of the story. It was mostly that Beat and Melody felt they had any connection at all beyond their mothers, and how Beat punished himself for his privilege. And gah, what a lame ending.

Recommend? No

Trying out the Asics Nimbus 25s

I didn’t recap our Christmas Day! Oops! We stayed at my snister’s all day and everyone came there. It’s so lovely to be in one place all day. We used to run around to three different houses and I thought that was fun when I was younger, but now I enjoy just being. The chaos doesn’t appeal to me anymore.

In the morning I ran with Dad, then everyone came over for lunch and presents, then most folks left and Steven and I watched a holiday movie his dentist hygienist had recommended (Noelle, we liked it), then we hung with the remaining family and went to bed. A nice, chill day. I was in the moment and the only photo I took is off me and dad on our run/ride.

My dad is AMAZING for riding his bike slowly for 7+ miles in the rain with me! One of my best Christmas presents. 

Which is what I came here to talk about anyway!

I received a pair of the Asics Gel-Nimbus 25s for my birthday (in July!) and was finally brave enough to try them Christmas Day. I had my doubts, but Val had told me good things about her updated Asics, and so had you all (re: your super cushioned shoes)!

They just look so different from the 24s. The 24s rare on top below, the 25s are on bottom:

Anyway! Verdict – they felt good on that run. It was all hard surface and the cushion felt nice. I was worried that being higher off the ground would make me trip, but I didn’t. I felt optimistic about them.

Then I wore them for my long run on the crushed limestone trail yesterday. And they felt too cushiony and light at first. I didn’t even know that was POSSIBLE! But for the first 3-5 miles of my run, my feet felt off, like I lost my connection to the trail. Weird, right? Or maybe not. By the end of the run they felt okay.

And, lots of rocks got into them on the trail, which was annoying. But I can wear gaiters to fix that.

So, early review is great on hard surfaces (which I try to avoid running on), and weird on trails. I will try them again on the trails to see if that feeling continues or if I get used to it.


Unrelated, but Jen and Troy and family came over last night for pizza, treats, and games, and we had such a fun time. I pulled out the game Loaded Questions, and I had forgotten how funny it can be! It’s simple – you roll a die and try to get across a board first, and on the way you ask the group questions from a card based on what you land on. Then everyone answers and you have to guess who says what. It just gets so silly. We were laughing so hard and I loved it. There might be a few inside jokes now too, related to someone getting “lots of kisses”. Ha ha ha.

And they saw our tree! So that’s four outside parties that saw it!

And Jen bonded with Khali and Ned. And we tried to convince them to take Tywin home (Tywin greeted them and walked them to the front door).


Ha, talking about a die reminded me of playing a game with our nephews Christmas night and it involved rolling a die. Ella was sitting on my lap so I taught her to blow on the die for good luck. Such a good aunt.


And one more Christmas story! It’s so fun to watch the kids open their gifts. Nephew William was opening something from my mom and he opens it all excited and goes “Are you serious?! Are you serious?!” I don’t even remember what it was but I loved seeing and hearing his joy at receiving it.

2023: Taking Back My Health

My biggest focus in 2023 was taking back my health, and I’m proud of the slow progress I made – and want to share my timeline!

TW: some discussion of weight & eating stuff

First, some history – I’ve been a runner since 2006, and even taught small group fitness classes from 2013-2020, but have always had binge eating problems. It’s gotten better this year but I haven’t mastered it yet.  And that’s okay, progress isn’t linear. I’ll keep at it.

All that to say, while I’ve been active for many years, since I’ve never had the diet portion of my life figured out, my weight has fluctuated during all that time. At the beginning of 2023 I was at my heaviest weight ever and felt like garbage – because I was eating mostly garbage. I also wasn’t running (I hadn’t since 10/26/22), because running didn’t feel good or bring me joy anymore.

I didn’t feel like myself. I missed feeling healthy, eating nourishing foods, and running. My 2023 goal started out with a focus on wanting to lose weight so it would feel better to run again, but it evolved into a physical and mental health journey.

Note: this timeline is just the highlights and doesn’t include everything in those categories

January – December
Physical:
I tried to eat reasonable portions and not binge eat but also not have anything off limits (except when I took a break from sweets). I very much have an “everything in moderation” mindset.
Mental: I continued to read, paint, and take baths for relaxation. I went on some friend dates in the beginning of the year and that trailed off when my summer got nutso busy.

January & February
Physical: I walked every day and did a half assed strength workout at home every few days.
Mental:  I took time off work and went to Tucson to spend time with Tiff and Val. I stopped tracking my workouts as intensely as before or being concerned about ending workouts in “.00.”

March
Physical – I started running again – I had lost some weight and had more energy and was excited to try again (after four months off!). I walked on days I didn’t run (and sometimes did those half assed strength workouts at home).
Mental – I took time off (full time) work in LA with Steven (although it was partially a work trip for Fake Meats).

April
Physical – I continued running and got my bike tuned up. I walked on days I didn’t run (and sometimes did those half assed strength workouts at home).

May
Physical – I started riding my bike again, and continued running (Steven and I did a deliberately slow and cautious buildup to a 5K in June). I walked on days I didn’t run (and sometimes did those half assed strength workouts at home).
Mental – I started therapy for burnout (I started working for Steven parttime in January and started teaching some rock painting classes but didn’t reprioritize my time and hobbies and was struggling).

June
Physical – Steven and I ran our 5K, I started half marathon training, and I started massage again. I walked on days I didn’t run (and sometimes did those half assed strength workouts at home).
Mental – I continued therapy.

July
Physical Steven and I ran another 5K, I did lots of long runs and long rides and LOVED THEM, and I did RAGBRAI (56 mile bike ride) with my Dad and snister.  I got a standing height desk for home. I continued massage. I walked on days I didn’t run (and sometimes did those half assed strength workouts at home).
Mental – I took time off work for trips to Iowa (trip 2 with Tiff and Val and family, trip 3 with Steven and family), I continued therapy.

August
Physical – I completed half marathon training but didn’t run a half. I started doing group fitness at WWM. I continued massage. I kept up with cycling outside. I walked on days I didn’t run.
Mental – I took some time off work in Denver and hung out with Val and Carrie. I continued therapy. I flew with Steven for the first time and realized it makes me extremely happy and giddy.

September
Physical – I tried acupuncture and liked it! Unfortunately they would not work with my insurance so I haven’t been back. I did a 10K with Rachel. I kept up with group fitness. I continued massage. I kept up with cycling outside. I walked on days I didn’t run.
Mental – I started journaling and stopped sharing my weekend recaps here (which lifted a self-imposed “must document everything!” weight, and helped with some uneasy feelings of all that being public). I took this month off therapy, which was a bad idea.

October
Physical – I got balayage. I ran a half marathon and made two new friends. I kept doing long runs after the half. I kept up with group fitness.  I continued massage. I kept up with cycling outside. I walked on days I didn’t run.
Mental – I took time off work for a trip to Maine with Steven, Val and Steve. I dabbled in meditation. I started therapy back up. I set boundaries.

November & December
Physical – I kept up with long runs and group fitness.  I continued massage. I kept up with cycling outside. I walked on days I didn’t run.
MentalI traveled to LA to spend time with Tiff and Val. I kept up with therapy and journaling. I said no to co-hosting a rock painting challenge again to protect my mental health (and am so glad I did – December was nuts with work).

Hopefully the very repetitive nature of this timeline demonstrates how I slowly built all of these things up. That is what has made keeping up with them all possible – I didn’t try to do it all at once. And I think slowly building up my fitness has kept me from getting injured, too (*knock on wood).

It wasn’t all sunshine and roses though – my mental health has gone up and down throughout the year. I felt mentally burned out for most of December. I’ve been struggling to come up with creative ideas for months. My eating has been off since October (but I’m determined to get back on track so I feel my best again). I wanted to try fitting yoga in and still haven’t. Etc, etc. There are always improvements to be made!

But! I’m extremely proud of the progress I’ve made this year and am excited to have this foundation going into 2024. I’m curious to see how consistent strength training transforms (or doesn’t?) me, and if my body will feel healthy enough to run a marathon (I plan to see how I feel in late February/or mid March then decide. Or heck, maybe even April. Ha!).

Hi! I’m Kim, a 40-something-year-old living in northeastern Illinois with my husband Steven, and our cats, Khaleesi, Apollo, Starbuck, and Eddard aka Ned. My current main hobbies are running, painting rocks, flying, reading, and eating. I follow a vegan lifestyle and work in an account management role. I write about a variety of topics and consider this a “life” blog – a place I can share anything that’s on my mind. Please visit the “About” page to get a better idea of who I am! 🙂

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