Random Thoughts Thursday 508

Oops! I missed my blogiversary on July 21. I’ve been blogging for 20 years. Whoa!
I was telling my trainer at the gym about all the craziness at work and how I’ve been trying to be unbothered, to let things roll of my back, to completely separate work thoughts from my precious free time, to not worry, etc. That I’m still working hard but I’m also like “what the f*ck ever.” And she says “it sounds like you’re in an ‘embracing change’ era!” Yeah, that sounds a lot better than “what the f*ck ever.” 😂 I should change my vernacular.
Seriously though, we’re in a huge limbo at work and it’s just not worth it to worry or fret about my future there. It’ll be what it’ll be. Imagining what it may be will do me no good. I know my brain thinks that’s planning and preparation, but it’s not. It’s a waste of time. I’d rather focus on being adaptable.
But things that previously bothered me are rolling off my back, which is nice. I give very few people at work (I’m not talking about my coworkers) reason to be jerks to me, so when they are, I’m not going to let it work me up.
And on that note, I told my doctor last month that I’d like to wean off of my anxiety medication. It was a funny conversation. I told her that and she was excited to help me, but then she bought up my weight gain this year and I told her how work has been and weight’s just not my focus and she’s like… um, are you sure you want to wean off your meds? Ha ha ha. Yeah. It’s for other reasons I won’t get into.
So, this photo is disgusting, but I have to share it. Steven found it under the fridge at the river house last weekend. It used to be my grandma’s house (she’s in assisted living now), and this is her handwriting. So this note is probably 7+ years old? It say “she runs not to escape but to get closer to herself this is Kim.”