I submitted my resume and essays last night! They’re due Wednesday and I can still edit them if I want.

The only photo I took yesterday – Apollo chewing on my new work notebook

I thought I’d feel this huge relief but I don’t. There’s other work I need to do – interview prep. (Of course we have a very specific interview process that requires lots of preparation.) If I get an interview.

Reading through the applications and requirements and essays I was like “this position was written for me!” But if I don’t prove that with my resume and questionnaire responses and essays I won’t get an interview. Blah. (I’ve been wondering if this is a confidence or an anxiety issue or both of those mixed with a respect for how hard they make this process.)

Working on this has become all consuming and it deserves to be – it’s the only advancement opportunity on my team (it would move me from one GS level to the next, which opens up more opportunity). But my brain is so fried.

But not too fried to not realize how fortunate I am that:

  • I’ve been given all the opportunities at work I need to qualify for this role
  • I’ve been assigned many special and complex projects and opportunities that help me stand out
  • I’ve had so many coworkers, friends, and family support me throughout this process
  • I’ve had all of you support me – thank you!

So! I will keep you posted, obviously! And I really hope being so open about it here doesn’t jinx me somehow.