During my annual review at work last week, one of my constructive criticisms was that when I am told to do something I don’t know how to do, I say “I don’t know how to do that,” then find someone who knows how.

The feedback was that time and time again, I’ve figured out how to do things I don’t know how to do, so when tasked with something like that, I should build on that past confidence to figure it out. And not say “I don’t know how to do that.”

Bottom line – they don’t want to hear “I don’t know how to do that.” Fair enough.

I know I need to change this instinctual response. I need to replace “I don’t know how to do that,” with “I’ll figure it out.” The first response is way too negative, and probably makes it sound like I am not going to figure things out, even though I always do.

And figuring it out will still involve, yes, me asking people who’ve done it before for advice. Because I don’t need to reinvent the wheel with most things I do at work. Especially procedural things. I prefer being taught. I prefer being efficient, when possible.

It’s funny I got this feedback right before a work day trip where I was going to do something I’ve never done before, and feeling nervous about it. How did I prepare? By asking people on my team who’ve done it before for tips and lessons learned. Did I say it was my first time and I didn’t know how to do it? To coworkers, yes. It’s almost like I do that to set expectations – hey, just a heads up, I have no idea how to do this, because I wasn’t trained on it, and never thought I’d have to, and don’t want it to be part of my job. But I’m gonna do my best! (Ha, not what I actually said…)

It all boils down to change being hard (and me being stubborn). My job is so different from when I started, and I understand why, but the new work doesn’t appeal to me. I work hard, but I don’t enjoy it. It’s rare I get excited about things at work anymore.

Luckily I work somewhere with lots of positions so I keep watching for something new! And yes, I can use a more positive vocabulary while I do so.

I just have such a hard time not saying what I’m thinking… or showing my reaction on my face even if I don’t say anything (ha, that was another constructive criticism years ago). But I can continue to work on that, and fake it until I make it at work!

No related picture, so here’s one from yesterday’s run