My knee is almost healed

by | Jul 18, 2018 | Running + Training | 10 comments

Visual progress!

One month ago, my knee looked like this:

And as of yesterday, it looks like this:

It’s still not 100% surfacely healed, and it’s definitely going to leave some scars, but it looks and FEELS better than a month ago! Yay! (However, it’s still tender if I try to crawl on it or put any pressure on it. That may just be a hereditary thing.)

I’m totally over what happened at Grandma’s (then why are you still talking about it, Kim?! muah ha ha, cause I CAN AND I WILL!!!), but randomly seeing things like this (below) makes me feel better – knowing that someone else also had a sh*t day from falling and couldn’t rally back 100%. (And yay that she got her redemption*!!!)

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#TheThingThatChangedItAll MARI DE MONTE, 32 / STYLIST / NEW YORK CITY My knees smacked the pavement four miles into the 2016 NYC Marathon. I thought I’d heard someone call my name (it rhymes with “sorry”), so I turned around and slammed into this French guy. I yelled, “I’m fine!” The French guy ran on. I was so embarrassed when I DNF’d at mile 15 because of knee swelling. My @blackrosesnyc teammates all had their medals. I was heartbroken. Time went by, and in 2017, I finished the Berlin Marathon with my team. Right after, my coach said I was doing NYC, in four weeks. None of my teammates were running. I was nervous, but I wrote “redemption” on my Nike 4%s, and at mile four I was like, “All right, doing better than last year.” All over the course, I saw my teammates out cheering. When I crossed the line, the Black Roses were on my mind, how they pushed me to this moment. I just lost it. #rg 📸@notafraid2fail

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*What about MY redemption? Half of me likes the idea of running an October marathon, and the other half of me says “Do Dallas in December, after you lose more weight.” I am not sure which half will win. Probably the thinner half.

10 Comments

  1. Kathy
    Kathy on July 18, 2018 at 4:18 pm

    I do not know how you ran on it!!! you are so lucky that you didn’t break anything judging by the amount of bruising. So glad its feeling mostly better x

    • kilax
      kilax on July 19, 2018 at 6:03 am

      Gawd, if I broke something in my knee or leg from falling that would be BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD. Gah. I can’t imagine! And thanks, me too! I am eager for it to just be scarred and get on with it.

  2. Amy
    Amy on July 19, 2018 at 1:29 am

    So glad to hear it’s better – after a full month, though, wow.

    • kilax
      kilax on July 19, 2018 at 6:03 am

      Thanks! I know, doesn’t it seem like it’s taking a long time?!

  3. Kristina
    Kristina on July 19, 2018 at 8:36 am

    OUCH! I still think that you are a badass for finishing the marathon. Totally sucks that it didn’t go as planned, but you definitely showed grit (sorry, such a cliché these days, but totally true for you) out there. Sounds like a fall/early winter race might be on the calendar???

    • kilax
      kilax on July 19, 2018 at 10:10 am

      Thanks 🙂 Yeah, I am thinking about a fall marathon if I can shed some weight! But I’d skip it if I can’t 🙂

  4. Bethany @ Accidental Intentions
    Bethany @ Accidental Intentions on July 19, 2018 at 1:59 pm

    Your knee looks SO much better. That first picture is bonkers! Holy cow, the bruising! High five to bodies that are able to fix themselves!

    • kilax
      kilax on July 19, 2018 at 2:19 pm

      Thanks! Isn’t it?! I was surprised by how much it bruised!!!!

  5. Mica
    Mica on August 5, 2018 at 9:54 pm

    Obviously, I’m going backwards while I catch up on your blog, so I bet your knee is healed by now. (I hope it is anyway.)

    Reading this, I felt guilty that I had forgotten about your knee and fall! I like reading your blog because it’s like chatting with your about your day (and we also chat), but it made me realize how distant I still feel when I can’t retain information about what’s going on in my friends’ lives. Maybe that’s part of being busy…you just have a lot of information coming in and out. Anyway, I’m sorry that I forgot and haven’t been checking in about how you’re recovering (physically and emotionally) from that bad race experience.

    • kilax
      kilax on August 6, 2018 at 6:20 am

      It is! There are just scars there now!

      Oh man, don’t feel bad at all. I didn’t really want to make a big deal about it with friends and family, but I did want to follow up on the recovery here and post before and afters so I could look at it later and laugh. And you should NEVER have to keep up with crap here – no one should have to! I should be doing that via text and email!!!!