I love our new tea box.

It’s nice not to have our tea in a plastic shoe box anymore!

Everything’s so nice and organized (okay, except the Celestial Seasonsings brand tea that we still keep in the pantry because they come in pillow tea bags)…

and I have loved trying the tea shared with me by Gina, Jen and Erin, and some of your recommendations!

But, I am a bit sick of tea.

And not because I don’t like the way it tastes. Or the fun of making and drinking it. Or the social aspects of it. I actually really enjoy all of that!

I am sick of using tea as a substitute for food.

And no, I am not drinking tea when I should be eating food. I eat plenty of food.

I am sick of trying to control my urges to snack when I don’t need to be snacking, by drinking tea.

I guess I am just sick of having the urge to snack when I am stressed, bored, anxious, nervous, happy, alone, etc. I am sick of having urges to sometimes binge eat, because I am avoiding something. I am sick of living between two extremes – fear of eating too much/and out of control eating.

Why does food have to be so complicated for me?

There have been very few times in my life where I have just been able to eat to fuel my body, without emotion attached.

Sigh.

I hate talking about stuff like this, but I needed to get it out there. I have been trying to get to a healthy weight, and it is frustrating. And not how slow the weight loss is – that is fine! What is frustrating is the “thinking about food so much” part. I hate having food on my mind.

Do you ever feel like you think about food too much? Any tips for me?